Days of my life

LIFE AS IT IS NOW

2010-07-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

ok, well, im back to this dead blog... Cause, i dont know who to confide in, and writing makes me feel better. For whatever reason the person im thinking of now, and partly cause of my emotional troubles is reading this... i consider myself lucky :D LOL Ok, recently, i've been getting more and more emotionally attached to someone, and I think i... well, you know, the usual cycle of girl-boy relationships.. Friends, good friends, relationship, then break up. LOL. But, i prefer being unconventional :D Sadly, she came into my life at perhaps... A wrong ... inappropriate time? Now is a critical time for me to advance in my studies and running. I really dont have time. I feel like just stopping everything and not get any deeper emotionally with her.. BUt, i cant. I miss her voice. I miss being with her. I miss our debate sessions. ROFL. At this point, I hope YOU are not reading this. I dont suppose YOU will stalk my profile and find that small little URL at the side... I MUST focus on my running and stuides... Im really lacking behind. Im still very slow for running, and my results are still crap. sigh... I sometimes feel like I cant do it. But, i wont give up.. NOt until the battle has really been lost. I dont know what to do... Lets just see how it goes.

My current life

2010-04-03T05:22:00.001-07:00

Lols... Its a freaking long time since I posted here... And, I think... Nobody will read it anyway. LOLs. Life has certainly changed a lot since the time of my last post. I ve now become a no life, whos completely devoid of a social life, other than sch and going to church. I just train and study most of the time... LOLs, I really feel like talking to someone right now... But I cant. Why? No.1, the friends I have in sch, we may be close, but I dont usually talk to Them about all these. No.2 I just lost a close friend, who I usually talk to when I need someone to talk to about personal stuff just to make me feel better. Well, we re kinda cold towards each other recently due to some conflicts and disagreements. I just really wish God could send someone into my life now, someone whom will just make me feel better. Well, if you re reading this, and you re feeling sympathetic, my number is 96467779. LOLs. My phone really silent nowadays. Wanna know how silent is silent? I can leave the phone off the whole day without worrying that anyone will msg or call me. Well, but I do receive some occasional messages from people like yu hong. And maybe calls from aakash. But, well, I still miss a certain someone's the most. I really enjoy the old times where we always message one another and talk over the phone. I feel really lonely nowadays... Its been months since I hanged out with friends outside sch, gone shopping, and stuff. I have really turned into a no life. Closed up in my own shell. I hope my days like this will end soon.

2009-11-30T07:14:00.001-08:00

Lols... Been feeling lousy this few days... Somehow, i just feel like a loser. Also, just wanted to find someone to talk to, but i realised, that person doesnt exist. Usually, i talk to Shanice, but somehow, these days, i just dont know why, but i cant tell her a lot of stuff. Dont feel comfortable telling her. And, i think im also going nuts, but i think im falling in love with my best friend! (Its a she, btw, just in case you think im *ahem*) Lols... I hope she doesnt remember my blog address :) she sure know its her when she reads this... LOL, or maybe not? Anyway, im also gonna use less facebook or plurk this dec, cause i will be busy gaming :) Lol... Somehow, i just want to live in my own world, and just forget about all this crap. Sometimes, i feel sad thinking about certain stuff too... So, i figured, if i cant tell anyone, might as well just run away from all this bullshit, and just enjoy my life for a month. But, sometimes, i really wish that a certain someone else would stop giving excuses. If you dont want, just say NO, no need say you want go malaysia, but not sure when you going. You know, theres always something called, planning!? Then in the end, one week later, you end up being busy with other stuff. Sorry for the many arrows i ve shot today. If you are reading this, and you think i might be talking about you. Take it that its not you. Dont hate me if i say this... Just quit bullshiting! Yes or no is the best answer you can give me. Well, wont be publishing as often until january next year. Will be using ALL my computer time for gaming purposes. Goodbye readers. Shall work towards my targets, and winning her heart... But, i still think im going crazy by being interested in her... My father sure say i no taste :o Lols... He already mocked us last time... When we were friends. If we re together, he confirm gonna laugh at me everyday. LOL. But, she s a nice girl la, and i more of like her for who she is. So far, only 1 person knows who she is :o. LOL. And i cant believe i said all this crap! ARGH! Especially the part about my father opinion on her. Oh come on! She s not bad what... Lols... Ok, enough crap from me already... Shall end here... FYI, i wrote and posted all this from my handphone...

MY CHINA TRIP~! (15-24nov)

2009-11-24T19:55:00.000-08:00

Day1(15/11)
Left house at 12+, on the way to airport, i saw a long line of traffic officers in their motorbikes, followed by a line of BMWs. WOAH! It was then i realised that they were the world leaders who came for the APEC thing. LOL! the security very tight sia... Upon reaching airport, i saw everyone (the team) It was then i realised, i got one of the smallest bag sia :o LOL! A lot of ppl their bag all like twice the size of mine... When we baorded the plane, i spent my time watching some china movie about this kid who wanted to meet jackie chan, played tap tap revolution, and talked with the rest around me.. When we reached the china airport, the weather there wasnt as cold as i expected .. phew.. After that, we took a bus to firstlight centre , then slept.

Day2(16/11)
HAd morning devotion, and a very good breakfast in the morning. After that, we had the trial run for the culture exchange, and the sports and games. After that, we went for shopping at luoyuan. Wah.. the shops there suck la.. Went so many shops , but didnt buy anything except 2 pens( cause they damn cheap) Plus, no western food!! sigh.. after that, nothing interesting already.. Starting to miss SG.. no hp, no com, and not much good food :O

Day3(17/11)
We left for fengban(the village area) in the morning. The weather there was colder, so it started to be impossible to endure the weather with only one shirt. We also visited the promary sch. The kids there were all very excited when they saw us. WOW! i think i know how it finally feels like to be a respectable person xD We were also given a lot of food, and the principal also talked to us about the sch. WHen it was time to teach, i and some others stood at the back of the class. The kids there were all "eager" to learn, but there was this one boy, who was sitting at the back of the class, and wasnt interested in the lesson. The girls all tried to make him open up, but to no avail. It was only when SS came, then he started to open up.. Hmmm , perhaps its that common bond that the china ppl shared that made him open up XD

Day4(18/11)
Today, we went to fengban sch as usual. This time, it was my turn to teach, along with michelle and wen hui. I didnt really teach much, and most of the teaching was done by wen hui. After that, went to help the other classes. At night, had a session of tai-ti( is that how u spell it?) with some other ppl.

Day5(19/11)
Today was the last lesson wiht the kids(for me). Personally, i dont really like teaching, and the language barrier made it worse. After lunch, i and yu hong played table tennis for like 2.5hours non-stop. Before that session, i was a CMI(cannot make IT) table tennis player. After that, i improved tremendously! i mastered the smash! , and this time, it scores a in! After that, went to help the other classes. Was helping the P6 class, then during the group games during the lesson, i helped this girl by the name of Li Zhen, then her group managed to be first, cause they played by point system. LOL! after 3 days, shes the only person i know in the sch. Also had sports and games with the children. At night, after dinner, debrief, and youth fellowship, i and yu hong played table tennis for like 2hours non stop until we slept.

Day6(20/11)
Today was our 4th and final day at fengban. Had a cultural exchange for the p3 and p4s. I was playing the guitar when we sang the songs. The cultural excange group also prepared a powerpoint slide about singapore. After that and lunch, the P5 and P6 had one last english lesson. As usual, i helped the P6 class. When Li Zhen saw me, she looked at me, and then smiled at me. So, we both ended up looking at each other for like 5s, before i turned away. (Yes, she was quite pretty, thats why i couldnt stop looking) As usual, i helped her , and her group came in first.. again. After that, we had a cultural exchange for the P5 and P6. We did exactly the same thing for them as we did for the earlier culture exchange. During the cultural exchange, i and Li zhen did the same thing again... Somehow, i cant stop myself from looking at her whenever she looks at me with those eyes... After the cultural exchange, we had to say goodbye to the kids and leave them for good. MAny ppl cried, cause they couldnt bear to leave the kids. A lot of the kids meanwhile, were collecting our contacts. Only one person asked me, and she was the only person i knew in the sch, and that was Li Zhen. It was then i realised, i actually havent been interacting much with the kids, cause since day1, i had been having a "i cant wait to go back to SG" attitude. SIgh.. should have interacted more with them..

Day7(21/11)
Went to fuzhou city via bus in the morning for tour and shopping. Had a very good lunch cause we went for buffet. Didnt buy anything there despite going to many shops. LOL! Also couldnt find any lan shop there... cannot play or use com :( after a day of window shopping, we went back firstlight centre

Day8(22/11)
Took a long bus ride to Mt Wuyi. We walked at Mt Wuyi for a few hours, before we went to this tea shop. I slept there, cause i disliked tea, and wasnt interested in learning their medicinal properties, and was also quite tired. We checked in to a hotel at night, and shared room with yu hong and SS. Our room the biggest sia, twice the size of all the others even though we only got 3 ppl in our room. Slept early that night...

Day9(23/11)
Went to Mt Wuyi again. This time, we climbed some 200m high rock, all the way to the top. When we came , i had to support some of the group, cause the stairs down very steep, and it was a problem for those ppl with a fear of heights. In the afternoon, we went rafting. It was quite a nice ride, and i had a nice time watching the scenery. After we left Mt Wuyi, we took a bus ride to the train station where we took an overnight train.

Day10(24/11) last day!
Faith woke me up in the morning(she did the same thing during day4 FYI) We reached Xiamen at 9+. After that, we took a boat ride to some island, where we went for a guided tour. After the tour, we went to some place, where the ppl tried hardselling some medical products to us. There was this special cream, where the woman claimed that it was very good at healing burns and without scarring. SO, she asked us if we believed, and wanted to demonstrate its effects, using a red hot heated iron chain. The girls were all like screaming dont do it! , but, i wanted her to do it, cause i didnt believe its effects, and i thought she was just playing with our emotions. So, she really did it, and she showed ME the blister, and after she applied the cream,5mins later, the blister was much better. So, i bought the cream. I figured it would be very useful in times when i kena burned. When back to singapore at night...
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BYE!!!

2009-11-14T18:04:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.. I will be leaving for china today afternoon 1pm.. will not be bringing handphone cause i dont want lose it :o .. LOL .. Man.. going to china for 10days .. will only be back on 24th at night :o somemore going on some china airline.. Father siad last night the china airline food sucks, toilet even worse ... zzz... i will miss my friends, computer, and the local food :o thats all for now... Will be playing com for the last time before i go china... COM!! i will miss you T.T .. LOL oh, and before i leave.. heres an extract of wat some ppl said last night when i smsed them .. "sry... who are you?" ... " all my precious guys leaving me" ... I mean no offense to the ppl who said this.. Just saying for entertainment =P pity the poor kid leaving ok :) at least u guys are much better than certain ppl who nvr reply -.- change number already nvr tell me -.- .. haha .. thats all folks.. BYE!

yet another day...

2009-11-11T03:13:00.000-08:00

well, today was my o level physics pratical exam.. as well as the last day of extended lesson... Yeah! finally can enjoy holiday... Lols. Lessons today were boring as usual.. But, during geog lesson, Mrs lee showed us this video about the chilren eating food leftover from a restaurant... They were so poor thing sia.. They were actually more than happy to eat otehr ppl's leftover food.. It really made me stop to think that we are really fortunate to live in Singapore.. Frankly speaking, im someone who wastes food, and i dont EVER eat vegetables, unless left with no choice... After sch, i and jen kiat consulted mdm chua on pure history... She was really helpful and gave us a lot of good notes and exam papers... Thanks mdm chua :D After that , i went for China CIP training, then learnt how to play pool with the guys there after training ended... Sigh.. Now got a lot of things to clear sia... ANd i have to spend my china trip studying as much as i can for pure hist :O i think my holiday only truly starts on december... Also considering to work as a coffin bearer... Yu hong said the pay was 25dollars an hour!! w00t! i want work there like dog already!! 25x14(hours)= 350dollars a day!! I can buy my guitar hero console in just days!! But, i do have my doubts about this, so i called him get the contact number first.. then i discuss with the person and find out the details.. In case you're wondering why the pay is so high, its because many ppl do not want to work there. What you do as a coffin bearer is basically transport coffins into the cemetry, then putting them in their graves.. Not sure if i have to dig.. BUt, its too good an offer to miss!! i wont mind sleeping in the cemetry if u paid me a 100bucks more :D haha.. shall end here... T.T going to china this sunday... last few days in SG

PSPS

2009-11-04T01:15:00.000-08:00

sorry, blog under massive construction.. pls bear with it...

New Blog Creation

2009-11-03T23:11:00.000-08:00

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